Chapter 13 (2/2): I Didnt Know That My Father Was Worried About Me

Translator: Asada

Editor: Kylerboi

As expected, the screen darkened and the previous view was replaced.

It seems to be a cross-sectional top down view of the house, ignoring the presence of the roof, it’s not surprising but the house is modern.

The entrance to the bath room and kitchen attached to the living room, it’s a Japanese styled room.

“Actually, when I carefully look at it…Isn’t this … my house?…”

No matter how I look at it, this is definitely my house.

I never had the opportunity to look at the top down view of the house so I got confused for a moment but I can never mistake the house in which I was living in for thirty years.

It possible for the former security guards to make a mistake…..but not me.

There is one person in the bathroom and two in the living room.

Is my sister taking a bath? If this is a reality, then I will be killed. I won;t look at it just in case.

So the ones in the living room are my father and mother? It looks like a continuation video after I went upstairs.

“… Is this a dream?”

Since I was thinking about the story about my parents… so this appeared in my dreams?

If this is just a dream then I could hear their conversation.

When I move the cursor to my parents, their conversation is displayed.

“Stop mentioning that in front of your son”

“That’s not a good idea. His father remembered the wedding anniversary for the first time in 10 years and gave me a present. I want him to know it.”

”It would be embarrassing for the kids to know about the bad qualities of their parents.”

It’s good because it’s just a dream.

“I’m honored that you are pleased. I’m sorry for the last 10 years. My heart was always worried and feeling lost.”

“You longer laughed from that day. Were you worried about Yoshio? ”

“Yes.”

Did you see that… I knew it was a dream, but still hearing my father say this, something pierced through my heart.

In the past, before I became a NEET… I was a very calm person.

Although I wasn’t good at many things but still I did my best for everything. I was always overwhelmed by the parent-child relay of the athletic meet. I always used to participate with my father.

…… Why did I forget such a thing?

I’ve always thought my father was like this. No, what were you thinking?

I didn’t want to admit that my family’s atmosphere had deteriorated because of me so I unconsciously changed my memories for my convenience.

………… I am a little amazed at myself. As this is a dream, it should be harder to think objectively.

“Because Yoshio has found a job now, his expression has become a lot brighter.”

“That’s really good. … I’ve always wanted to apologize to Yoshio since that day”

“Eh?”

I was stunned by my father’s remarks.

I checked the words again but it doesn’t seem to be a mistake in reading on my part.

Dad wanted to apologize to me? Why? If I would have to apologize then my apologizes will form up a mountain but my father doesn’t need to apologize.

“Is that about the fight?”

Ah right. I will never forget that day.

I still remember the contents of fights… but there should not have been any remarks which my father would regret. He did not say anything wrong.

“I said to Yoshio… “You don’t put in enough effort. ” And I even screamed, ” Anyone can get a job if they work seriously “”

The word was certainly a shock to me because I was doing my best seriously.

But now when I think about it, I take it as a statement that he wasn’t serious about.

My mother must have thought so too because she did look back at me and my father with a surprised face at that time.

“It was disappointing because he was a charismatic and a hardworking man when he was in college. ”

“Yeah, but that was too much.”

“True. When you were his age, you used to play around and party with your friends all day.”

Dad became silent on mother’s remarks.

…… Yeah, this is definitely a dream. It’s the opposite of my serious father. As this is a dream, the setting is so unreasonable.

“There is no way for me to take back those words. If I was living in the present era, I would have been definitely worse than Yoshio. It was thanks to the time that I was able to find a job. It was just because the bubble was at its height. It was an era where the economy was good and companies were looking for employees.”

Bubble period. It seems that there was a dreamy time when Japan was booming.

I’ve seen it featured on TV several times. However, it was an incredible sight for the people who live now.

That’s a dreamy fantasy.

“Yoshio was a much more serious student than me and he was working hard to find a job. And yet, I put myself up on a mountain and said that. I didn’t have the right to say that.”

Because the video is from top view, I can’t see my parents face. However, my father’s back trembled slowly as if crying.

“Because I became a parent, I wanted to be a decent adult and hence my language and tone changed and I decided to live very seriously…..But it was lowest of me as a person to say that without thinking about his feelings and hardwork … “

Dad …

Emotions are shaken by hiss crying appearance, which I have never seen before.

“I … I didn’t used to study hard so my mother wasn’t good to me as a child and used to force me to study. So I was going to trying to avoid talking to Yoshio and Sayuki about studies but in the end I was no different from her…”

No, father is different.

You were my idol when I was in school. I used to admire you.

The reason why I used to be serious was because I was desperate to catch up with my father who was so hardworking.

Dad is wonderful now and was even in the past.

“How is it? Certainly we are good adults with grown up children? Parents get more experience only when their children get older. When one grow up and become a parent, not everyone can stay the same.”

“When I was a child, I thought adults and parents were more respectable to each other.”

“Me too. We should think of each others who are still growing and learning. as they are still growing. Just as Yoshio is trying hard to change, we should change as well. “

That’s when they start smiling to each others faces.

I am glad that my parents had views similar to mine even though I knew it was just a dream.

From my point of view, the two are good adults and parents. Such parents who are worried and care about their children.

I think that the burden on my mind has become a little heavier. Maybe the same can be said for my parents.